Four years ago I was a brand new mom, and starting to come to terms with just how clueless I actually was. I had read the books, I did the classes, I asked a ton of questions, but I was left holding this tiny perfect bundle- clueless. Everything went wrong with her arrival. My birth plan (ha!) was to have a natural labor- no medication for the baby’s sake, and to breast feed her exclusively. My water broke at 40+5 requiring an induction, and my labor stopped progressing at 8cm and 12+ hours in. The recommendation was to have an epidural because at that point I was in labor land,…